Mondays With Mother: An Alzheimer's Story

In 2002 my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's. It is a hard road, and we live it one day at a time. This is a chronicle of her disease and my Monday visits with her.

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Name: Anne Robertson
Location: Plymouth, Massachusetts, United States
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

No visit

Coming home from Pennsylvania late Sunday night to the news of a sudden death in the congregation, I was unable to visit on Monday. Since I'm leaving town again today, there will be no visit this week.

That doesn't feel good. On the one hand, I can't say I go to my visits eagerly. They are easier than they used to be, but they are still draining and hard. On the other hand, who knows how long it will be before I walk into her room and she will have no glimmer of recognition.

I have to wonder. Does she know I wasn't there? Does she know a day is missed or does she have just a vague notion that I haven't been around for awhile? Or maybe she's oblivious and hasn't missed a thing. She may not have missed anything. But I have. I've missed another chance...another moment...another piece of life slips through my fingers.