Mondays With Mother: An Alzheimer's Story

In 2002 my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's. It is a hard road, and we live it one day at a time. This is a chronicle of her disease and my Monday visits with her.

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Saturday, August 06, 2005

Ice Cream

It's Saturday, but the day was warm and beautiful and a sudden spurt of writing last night made me feel a bit less anxious about deadlines. So, when Laurie wrote this morning and said she and David were going tomorrow instead of today, I decided to head for The Birches.

Not that heading north to NH on a gorgeous Saturday afternoon is tremendously smart. Everyone else on the planet had the same idea and the one hour trip took me two. But I did get there at last and found Mother standing in the dining room with one other resident, waiting to be taken upstairs to Bingo.

Russell was seated where he always is for lunch, but was out of his wheelchair and had his walker beside him. So he must not have broken anything when he fell a few weeks back. Frances was seated opposite him and seemed starved for company, so we chatted a bit. She is such a sweetheart.

Then I told Mother she was not going to Bingo, but that we were going out for ice cream. Marie has told me about a place just up the road called Beech Hill Farms where there is not only good ice cream but some farm animals as well. Sounded perfect for a perfect day.

It takes some doing to get Mother out of her room these days...not because she doesn't want to leave, but because she is trying to check things and be sure all is in order before she goes. So after checking the bathroom, all her animals, walking in the closet, checking the bed, and going through both of her pocketbooks, I finally was able to guide her out the door. She stopped to see Russell on the way out and bent over and kissed him on the cheek. "Want another one?" she asked him. I pulled her along before things got out of hand.

She dealt easily with the car, and soon we were on our way. The place is about four miles out and perfectly lovely. We sat under a huge oak tree and ate our ice cream, and as Mother was coming to the end of her cone, a good-sized dog (who apparently lives there and has learned to beg professionally) came to stare at her last bites. "Do you really want every last bit of that?" his gaze asked...ears perked, head cocked. She looked at the remainder of her cone and then at the dog. The dog scored and then moved on to the next table.

We got up and I said, "Why don't we go look at the animals?" "I don't know," she answered. So we wandered around...all sorts of barnyard beasts were there...some rabbits, some sheep, a couple of pigs, some peacocks, goats, two shetland ponies and a donkey. So we made the rounds, and by that time she was finally ready to take her sweater off. The temperature was in the mid-eighties in the shade.

Eventually it was time to go and we piled back in the car and headed back to The Birches. I hurried her back past Russell and to her room where we had a prayer, and I left. We didn't really talk much. We ate ice cream, enjoyed the breeze and the animals and just generally enjoyed the day. There are sunlit glades on even the hardest roads.

Monday, August 01, 2005

schedules

One of the realities of having a loved on in any home other than your own is trying to find a way to schedule visits. Fortunately the Birches is only an hour from where I live, but still it is not easy.

I did not go today. As I wrote last week, the disturbance of the other residents by me being there over lunch showed me that I couldn't continue to do that any more. The trouble is, Mondays at lunch are about the only time during the week that I can regularly be sure to have little or no time conflicts. As a pastor, my schedule is hectic and varies from week to week, and I need at least a three-hour time block to go.

I felt very little guilt for not going today, however, and I may skip this week entirely. I have found my visits in these weeks following my move to be very draining and sad. I think that is because the grief issues surrounding my move are getting added into the mix. It feels like a big weight off of my shoulders to think about taking a week off from a visit. Without needing to set the alarm this morning, I didn't wake up until almost 10 am...exhausted from the weeks of moving and working without any substantive break. I paid bills and vacuumed the house, walked the dog and read the latest National Wildlife Federation magazine.

I printed out the log file for my website and saw that this blog had 474 hits last week. So, I say to all of you wrestling with these sorts of concerns...take a break. It is good for body and soul. I'm sure I will figure out a schedule somehow, or simply vary the days and times that I go. But I think that will become clearer once I rest. I will still try to write something on (or close to) Mondays.